Whoa. So busy lately I haven't had much time to think for myself. I have a lot going on this week with tests, a speech, lab practical and paper, school consumes me. But for as much as I am working for school, God is working in me. He is speaking to me and teaching me new things every day. Lately I've had my mind on the future a lot and what will happen after graduation. I registered yesterday and that always brings a different brand of anxiety that doesn't seem to change even after doing it so many times. Thankfully, I got most of the classes I wanted and a schedule that is pretty close to perfect for me. But having to plan my classes and all that screamed to me, whoa! You only have three semesters left! (Hopefully) And I think to myself, where has the time gone and how much more quickly will this next year and a half pass? Am I ready for it to be over? What happens if my plans don't work out? Which is when God says, they're not your plans, they're my plans. I cast my cares and worries upon Him because He knows how things are going to work, therefore I believe it's kinda impossible for Him to worry. His control allows us to be guided knowing that what He has planned is what is best for us. As these plans proceed, that's when we will know about them. It is a day by day revelation, not something that He will give us all at one time. This is why we must take up our cross daily following after Him. We have to decide that what He has given us is what we will believe in and pursue. We'll never have all the answers, but we will have faith that what God is doing is shaping us to be all that we can be to give Him the glory.
Jeremiah 29:11, Romans 8:28

Clear the Stage

This is a great song, I hadn't heard before that our Bible study teacher emailed us. I'd like to remember it from time to time so I'm posting it on here!

God's Broom

God has been speaking to me in the most random of ways lately. Yesterday I was sweeping the floor, not really because I thought it really needed it, but there were a few things I could see. The more I swept though, the more I noticed that we must not have swept in a while because there was a lot more than I originally thought. Through this, and somewhat combined with what we discussed at Bible study Monday, I realized how much dirt and sin we have in our own lives that we don't even realize is there until we start "sweeping" our hearts up and are left with a pile of grossness. Lately, I've been thinking a lot about what other people are doing wrong and how it annoys me, and just want to shake them and be like, "Don't you get the picture?" But that's exactly what God is doing to me, He's shaking me and saying the same thing. We may trick ourselves into thinking our floors are pretty clean, or even worse, become comfortable with the filth that has settled into our hearts like a three inch dust layer on the hardwoods. Then we come before God and say, "Oh it's not that bad, it's not that dirty in here." We try to justify our sins without confessing them specifically. God sees through these lies and asks us, "Really? You seriously want to go there?" (I sort of picture The Rock with his one eyebrow up look) The past couple of weeks God has revealed to me my masks and dirt layers, and now I'm trusting Him to dustbuster my heart into a right relationship with Him.

"How can I know all the sins lurking in my heart? Cleanse me from these hidden faults." Psalm 19:12

"Create in me a clean heart, O God. Renew a loyal spirit within me." Psalm 51:10

Lately

Some pretty cool things have been going on around here lately, and I'm so grateful for them all. Tonight, I just got back from spending the weekend in Valdosta. Tulley is already bigger, but still just as sweet and cuddly to hold. Cutter too :) I can't wait to go back and spend more time with them! Tonight we also had a small get together with our Bible study girls to get to know each other better and that went great as well. I'm really loving this semester's group and the things I've already learned. God is speaking to me loud and clear and I am so thankful for that and thankful for the opportunity to be able to share that with these girls. The weather has turned and it is finally feeling like Fall. I love the crisp air and the warm sunshine, it's perfect to enjoy being outside. On Friday I was trying to work out my schedule for next semester and just looking at my curriculum I wondered where has the time gone? I only have three semesters left, and it seems like yesterday I was wondering how in the world am I going to tackle these classes? Life is getting real pretty quickly, I'm just hoping I can keep up!